do you like me ?

I asked her one of the most important question which affected my life,

"do you like me ?"

and she replied back with

"no.. not in the same way as you do."

.........yes i was speechless, i couldnt speak anymore,

and i didnt know what to do after i read what she wrote :(

I miss you :(

I was missing her as usual but this time i was missing her more, my heart said that i should send her an SMS to let her know that i was missing her.

So I sent her the SMS

" i miss you :( "

I was waiting for her reply, i was grabbing my mobile every now and then to see if there was any new SMS from her but there wasnt any, i dunno from where but this layer of sadness formed around my heart

Maybe she doesnt miss me like the way i do or maybe she doesnt likes me at all or maybe she didnt get the message, its been quite sometime since i sent her the SMS and guess what ?

I am still waiting for her reply.......

Her Future Plans

Few hours back, i was chatting with her, i asked what her future plans were, she said that she wanted to study more (because thats what her dad suggested her), then she will give some exams and fly off to U.S

When i heard that she was gonna fly away to some unknown country, far away from me, although its couple of years later from now, but i felt really sad and went almost speechless for sometime

I wanted to tell her that one day, she will become a very well known renowned writer and she would be sitting outside at Starbucks thinking about her next book, (at that time) maybe she will miss her friends (and me) or maybe not, but somewhere in my heart i think she will miss us all very badly

I really dont want her to go, actually its more like,

i cant let her go because i dont want to but will it be right, if i hold her back just for my selfishness ?

I am too confused (and sad) at the moment but i really dont want her to go, thats all i know :(

The Ice Cream

I was waiting desperately to catch a glimpse of her and

almost dying to meet her after the birthday party

She looked happy this time but tired,

i was very happy too after seeing her,

we had ice cream together, and guess what ?

i ate half cup of her ice cream (it had became pudding by then)....